I Dyed My Hair Purple

Hi all,

If you've been reading my blog for a while then you may remember last year when I dyed my hair green. This year, I've decided to go purple!

It's my favourite colour and when I got hit by the urge to dye my hair, I knew it would be the next colour. I went to same hairdresser that I went to last time and I absolutely love it!

Thankfully my alopecia hasn't been too bad for a while so I've been able to dye my hair in recent years. It's nice to be able to try different colours after spending years not being able to.

Will I go a different colour in the future?

Probably. I love how I look after getting it done and I'm excited to try other colours too. Maybe next time I'll try a blue colour.

The only problem is that now I'm finding purple hairs everywhere. Mishka doesn't seem to mind too much though as she's still trying to eat the hair from my head.

That's it for this week, I hope you enjoyed reading! See you next week. 

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I'm Finally Listening to Audiobooks

Hi all!

I'm sure you can guess what I'm going to be writing about based on the title alone. Yes, I've started listening to audiobooks. No, it's not in the way you expect.

I listen to audiobooks to go to sleep.

If the narrator is right, I find their voice really soothing and it helps me to drift off. So far I've listened to some mythology books, a history book, some Doctor Who and some comedy ones too. I'm still getting engrossed in the stories and I'm getting excited to go to sleep because I can listen to the next part. It's not a conventional way of reading books, but I find it's really helping me. If I'm feeling overstimulated or anxious, I find that having something on in the background that I can focus on just helps me gently drift off to sleep. It doesn't even effect Mishka, she'll happily settle next to me and sleep as normal.

So far, my favourite books have been The Stone Rose and Unruly. They both kept me so hooked and I was looking forward to hearing it before bed. I managed to stay up to listen to all of The Stone Rose! I'm listening to them in thirty minute pieces, so it gives me enough time to actually get some sleep instead of staying up all night.

It was my boyfriend's idea, he's listened to a lot when he sleeps to help him settle and now that we're living together I'm doing the same thing. It's nice that I've found a way to enjoy audiobooks as I've always wanted to get into them but find it hard to concentrate on them. I usually lose my place in the book or tune out and stop listening. But at night it gives me a chance to unwind and listen to a good story as I go to sleep.

That's it for this week! See you next Sunday. 

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The First Draft of Street Rats is Finally Complete!

Hi all, 

If you've been reading my blog for a while then I'm sure you've heard about Street Rats. I originally started writing it in 2021 but I've struggled to get through the first draft. Even with less than 2000 words to write I just couldn't bring myself to do it.

But now, I've done it. 

Street Rats is done! The first draft is written and will now sit on the back burner until I edit it. I hope it won't take me years to get the courage to edit it but I'm so glad that I finally managed to get it done. 

At the time of writing it, I was being bullied and isolated in my job and it was spilling into my writing. The main character, Hailey, was hated for no reason and the other characters shunned her no matter what she did. Because I was feeling like that in reality, those feelings and scenarios spilled into the book. Even though I knew it was happening, I couldn't stop it. It felt like I was trying to justify the actions of the people around me by writing it in a book. But there was no justification for completely ignoring me for hours on end and making me feel terrible for getting stressed about doing the majority of the work. 

Even when I left that job I couldn't bring myself to finish the story. I just kept thinking about how much work it will need editing and how I don't want to revisit those feelings again. I don't know why I suddenly felt like I was able to finish it, but I have. My mental health has never been better and I saw it on my phone one day and just started writing. Now, it's done. 

Don't get me wrong, there is still plenty of work to do if I eventually want to publish it. But I love the concept and the world I created. I don't want to let that just sit on a computer for the rest of my life. It might take a bit longer to see this story and I do apologise for that. But getting the first draft done is a huge step and I'm proud of myself for that. I've come to terms with my feelings and what happened to me and I don't feel so bitter anymore. One day I'd love to have this book on a bookshelf next to all my other published works. 

That's it for this week, I hope you enjoyed reading. See you next week. 

Rocky has Crossed the Rainbow Bridge

Hi all,

Some sad news this week. Rocky, my fifteen year-old cat, passed away on the 22nd August. He went peacefully surrounded by family.

If you've read some of my older blog posts then I'm sure that you're aware that Rocky was my first writing buddy, the one who was with me when I wrote my first book. I even turned him into a human character in Elemental Dragons, but tried to keep his personality the same. He became Hazel's overprotective older brother who was creative but a softie at heart. He was there for me every step of the way through writing Blood and Water, which was called Marine at the time. Even after I finished the book and started researching agents and editing the book myself, he was there by my side. Or sometimes, literally in my face!

The behaviour of the dragons in Elemental Dragons is mostly inspired cats. Rocky was my 'dragon' that I would observe in between writing to get some of his behaviours right. For example; the dragons sleep curled up with their tails covering their noses, which is what cats do.

I want to do something in his memory but I'm not too sure what yet. I would love to work with a cat charity and raise some funds for them or even run a raffle with my books as some of the prizes. I have a charity in mind already but I'm not going to rush myself into contacting them, I'm going to give myself enough time to grieve properly.

Losing him was heartbreaking and I know he would want me to keep writing, which is what I'll do. Mishka, my five year-old cat, has been helping me through this time and I hope that she will take up his role as chief writing buddy.

I loved him so much and I'll never forget everything he did for me. I'll find some way to do some good in his honour once I've sorted my own head out first.

That's it for this week. See you next Sunday.

The Impact of Writing on Mental Health

Hi all! 

This week I wanted to talk about the impact writing can have on your mental health. Writing can help me immensely when I feel low, but sometimes that can reflect what I write. I thought I'd list a few things here. 

Relieves stress. 

Even if you only write a few words a day, I've found that writing can be a huge stress reliever. It lets your mind wander for a bit instead of worrying. 

Get your emotions out. 

Writing can be a good way to get your emotions out, good and bad. It may help you with how you're feeling and relieve some of the pressure. However, this can also be a double-edged sword. I find that when I'm mentally ill, this reflects in my writing a lot. I tend to write the characters with what I'm going through and how I'm feeling. This is especially evident in Street Rats, which has taken over the entire story. 

It's an escape. 

You can escape for however long you want in writing. Even if it's just for a few minutes every day. It gives your mind a rest from what's going on in the world. But this can get unhealthy if you're doing this too often, you need to make sure that you're not making yourself more sick by writing longer than you need to. 

Improved mood. 

It can help improve your mood as it gives you something else to focus on. Afterwards you can come back from it with a clearer mind. 

Organises your thoughts. 

Writing can help you organise your thoughts and feelings by writing them down. You don't even need to write a story, you can just write about your feelings and what made you feel that way. 

I hope this blog post can make you feel better about writing, even if you don't feel like you're in the best mental state. I've found writing to be such a good thing for me and it gives me an escape but also a way to get my feelings down. I love writing and it has definitely helped me when I've been at my lowest. 

That's it for this week, see you next Sunday! 

Why I Dyed my Hair Green

Hi all!

Last week I got my hair dyed. You might be asking why this warrants a blog post, but don't worry, I'll explain! Firstly, check out the pictures below:

This is such a big deal as I haven't been able to dye my hair for over a decade. I have alopecia, though mine is quite mild. Alopecia is when the immune system attacks hair follicles to cause hair loss. Mine started when I was in secondary school, around the time I was starting my GCSEs. I was advised that mine was probably exacerbated by stress, which wasn't anything I could really do about until my exams were over.

One thing that my GP did suggest is that I should stop dying my hair, as this could be making the alopecia worse. I had reddish hair at the time, which I then had to grow out.

Luckily the trend for balayage came in around the same time, so no-one really gave much attention to the fact that I had long brown roots with red hair. Well, except my so called "friends". I got a lot of grief from them for the way my hair looked and was told to just ‘dye over it’. Although teachers at school were aware that I had alopecia, none of them did anything to help me with it.

A few years ago I got the bus and saw this woman with beautiful green hair. I knew that if I could ever dye my hair again, that would be the colour I'd go. Now after ten years, I'm proud to say that I have!

I love the colour and I'm going to get more green added next time as its quite subtle at the moment. I'm glad that my hair is finally at a point where I can dye it again without causing bald patches. My mental health has improved in leaps and bounds from where I was at the beginning of the year. I'm nowhere near as stressed as I used to be and my hair is in great condition. Even one of the bald patches that stubbornly refused to grow is now sprouting a few hairs!

I'm so glad that I was finally able to get it done and I hope that this shows that my alopecia hopefully won't be too much of a problem again in the future. Maybe I'll try some other colours too.

That's it for this week, I hope you enjoyed reading. See you next week!

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The Ivybridge Bookshop Book Signing Event

Hi all,

As I said in my last blog post, I attended a book signing event at The Ivybridge Bookshop! There were twenty-eight authors in total who attended, listed here:

Margaret Arnold

Charles Becker

Sue Blackmore

T P Fielden

Biku Ghosh

Alan Grant

Trevor Griffiths

Eleanor Halton

Adam Hart-Davis

Kathryn Harries

Judith Hasell

Alison Huntingford

Kevin Jefferys

Mary McClarey

Laurence McPartlin

Julian Mitchell

Jenny Moore

Pip Payne

Tony Rea

John Simes

Ewen Southby-Tailyour

Julian Stockwin

Clive Venables

Veryan Williams-Wynn

Jane Whittington

Anne Willingale

And of course, me!

The poster for the event

The poster for the event

There were quite a lit of people in the shop itself, which made it quite nerve wracking. I was one of the last to talk about my book, and read a short excerpt from Blood and Water about Aqueous hatching. It was fun to hear about other authors talking about their books and how they've sold. A lot of the authors based their books in the Devon area of the UK, often in the crime or mystery genre. I was one of the few that wrote Young Adult Fantasy.

I bought three books while I was there, which I have added to my to be read pile! My boyfriend, who came along to support me, ended up buying a book too!

A collection of photos from the event, courtesy of The Ivybridge Bookshop

A collection of photos from the event, courtesy of The Ivybridge Bookshop

Unfortunately, none of my books sold while I was there. I also brought along holographic stickers of Aqueous, a dragon character from my books, but no-one had any of those either. In total, I sold no books and didn't sign any either. It's disappointing, but I'm still glad that I did it. While waiting to read I was getting anxious, and when I spoke to the audience my hands were shaking so much that I had to cut my excerpt short. Still, it's good experience for if I get invited to one of these events again. It was nice to speak to other authors about their journeys in writing and see all of their books on display in one place.

You can check out the books by local authors here (includes the complete Elemental Dragons series!): Ivybridge and South Devon Authors

There are currently four of each of the Elemental Dragons books in stock, so if you want to buy my books and support a bookshop I would recommend getting them from the link above! I will also being doing a giveaway of some holographic stickers… So keep an eye out for that too!

That's it for this week, I hope you enjoyed reading! For an idea of next week's blog post, keep an eye on my social media... See you next week!

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Audra's Mental Health in Mute

Hi all!

This week I'm talking about Mute again! It's only a few months until its available, and I thought I would discuss the main character.

Her treatment throughout the book is based off of mine when I was in school. Although Audra's is a lot worse. She doesn't verbally speak a line of dialogue throughout the book, which is intentional. Her anxiety is so bad that she can only communicate through text message. Even within her own family, she barely speaks.

Because of the fact that she can't speak, the other characters treat her differently. They turn on her quite easily, and see her as below them. This is especially prevalent with two of her lecturers. One threatens to fail her if she doesn't speak, while the other is passive aggressive towards her. Neither offer to make her feel more comfortable in their classes, or allow her to defend herself. One lecturer, Yang, manipulates her into believing he's on her side. He helps her when the other lecturers are nasty, and punishes students who bully her. However, his motives for doing this aren't the best.

When she does try to stand up for herself the other characters instantly shut her down. They try to make her feel bad for lashing out, and try to justify their behaviour that their lives are worth something while hers isn't. This obviously takes a toll on Audra, who for the first time believed that she was starting to make friends. As the book goes on, she starts losing faith in everyone around her. A few times she tries to prove herself as useful, but the others don't care. Her own thoughts make her feel worse and worse, and she even considers if she deserves this reaction from them. They are deliberately making her anxiety worse, which just makes them more frustrated with her.

That's why she cares about Solaris so much. As a cat, he doesn't care if she speaks or not. She's helping him try to defeat the wendigo, which is more than good enough in his eyes. I used to rely heavily on my cat, Rocky, when I got home from school as I felt like he was the only one who wouldn't judge me. He'd sit on my lap and purr away without a care in the world, which would also ease my feelings of helplessness and inadequacy. You could say that Solaris is based off Rocky, apart from tracking down a cannibalistic wendigo!

This is an uncomfortable topic to talk about as it resonates with me so strongly. I hope you enjoyed reading, and now feel you have a better insight into Audra's actions and feelings. See you next week.

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Mental Health in Elemental Dragons

Hi all!

As it was Mental Health Day yesterday I thought I'd talk about the mental health of my characters in the Elemental Dragons series. When I first wrote Blood and Water I had undiagnosed anxiety and depression. I thought that these feelings were normal, so my characters also felt the same way. It wasn't until two years later that I realised that this wasn't normal and that I had accidentally given my characters mental health issues. The characters that have mental health issues are:

Hazel.

Wes.

Marco.

Ray.

As the book is read through Hazel's eyes we see her struggles the most, especially with her anxiety. As I thought these thoughts were normal at the time I never thought anything of it when I wrote Hazel's character to think the same way. In the books she suffers with her anxiety a lot, from public speaking to unwanted attention. After I was diagnosed with anxiety I decided to keep her character that way to give some insight into mental health. Every time she second guesses herself it reminds me of when I was untreated, as I had doubts about everything I did. Including writing books.

Wes also has a degree of anxiety, though his is mild compared to Hazel's. He hates public speaking but finds his confidence through Ray. Having someone to support you at your lowest can be the best thing to have, as you don't feel so alone. Although Ray was manipulating Wes, he didn't care. He looks up to him and sees him as his saviour and mentor, someone to rely on when his doubts become too prevalent again.

Although Marco doesn't have as much anxiety, he has depression. This is in part due to trauma and also his isolation by his brother. Mason inadvertently pushed him away when they were young, which made their bond suffer. Marco feels he can no longer rely on his twin, and instead has Hazel as his 'partner in crime'. Especially since Mason chose Sadie over him in book two, this has only made those feelings worse. The others find him too mopey to be around sometimes, and Rocky hates him for his love of Hazel. While Hazel was a year behind in Primary Camp, Rocky bullied him relentlessly with his friends and pushed him further into a depressive state. As the books go on he gets better, but still doesn't feel the same as he used to.

A lot of readers overlook Ray as having mental health issues as he's the antagonist. However, he has suffered a horrific childhood trauma at the hands of the government, which cost him his best friend, Fae. Ever since he's been desperate to take them down, and finds the perfect opportunity to lead the Cindaraans. He still suffers from horrible nightmares of his burning friend appearing to him to chastise him for not doing enough to help dragons.

Some have also asked me if the dragons can suffer mental health issues, which the answer is yes. This is not explored as much in the books so far, though I hope to delve into it a bit further in the future. The main one is Bluey, who has feelings of survivors guilt due to his companion dying. He also suffers from nightmares, but puts a brave face on for his friends, who don't really seem to notice his inner feelings.

That's it for this week. I hope you enjoyed reading, see you next week!

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How Writing has Improved my Mental Health

Hi all, 

It's been a while since I made a blog post about mental health, so I thought I would talk about how writing has greatly improved my mental health and hopefully it can help anyone suffering too. 

I suffer from depression and anxiety, though I am nowhere near as bad as I used to be. Now that I'm medicated and out of school I'm much happier mentally. A change of scenery can do wonders for mental health. I used to have frequent panic attacks and depressive episodes, but that has decreased a lot. I feel much more human than I used to be. 

It's an outlet. 

No matter what mood I'm in, I can rely on my writing as a way to get my feelings down. I can use my life experiences in my writing and how I wanted to deal with them or how I dealt with them. For example when I was at school I was ignored most of the time, but then I could write about characters who were great friends and it would cheer me up. I could write anything I wanted. 

Your writing won't judge you. 

You are the creator of the story, you decide what happens. Your writing and your characters won't judge you. You can write freely without fear of being taunted by others. 

You can be anything. 

All authors write a little bit of themselves in their stories. This means when you're down you can write yourself as anything. A dragon rider, a cat or the leader of a faction of survivors. You can be anything you want and you can do anything you want. 

It's an escape. 

I read and write to escape from reality. I still believe that fiction is better to take my mind off things rather than talking to someone about it. 

A hobby makes you feel better. 

Getting up and doing something gives you something else to think about. When I'm writing I find that I'm thinking less about how anxious or depressed I am when I go through bad spots. 

It combats loneliness. 

Writing your characters can help with loneliness, which I used to suffer from a lot when I was at school. You can write how your characters interact and who is friends with who. They can't ignore you as they are in your head. 

You can help others. 

I write for all the depressed and anxious teenagers out there that need an escape from their lives. Your writing can not only help you, but it can help others too. I don't know what I would have done if I didn't have books to read. 

That's it for this week, see you next week! 

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